Well, that's healing happening in your life and sometimes it takes a long time. Both of my parents died by the time I was 20. I was 15 when my father died and my chief regret with him is that was unable to know him as an adult. My mother killed herself when I was 20 and and I was the one who found her. That emotional scar took about 40 years to heal. To this day, I still can't attend funerals. Anyone's funeral. It's just too much. So I can understand when you say you're not "there" yet. Blessings.
Well, that's healing happening in your life and sometimes it takes a long time. Both of my parents died by the time I was 20. I was 15 when my father died and my chief regret with him is that was unable to know him as an adult. My mother killed herself when I was 20 and and I was the one who found her. That emotional scar took about 40 years to heal. To this day, I still can't attend funerals. Anyone's funeral. It's just too much. So I can understand when you say you're not "there" yet. Blessings.
there are no manuals for babies when they arrive and there are no roadmaps for grandpas when they die. you just have to figure it out as you go along.